waking up to noone...

so i'm not sure how comfortable i am with this...lol....last night ashlyn had her first sleepover at monames...i was so proud of her for arranging it all...and she was so excited to go...now, ashlyn has stayed the night over at chase's and a long long time ago with my grandparents...but i've always had ryan there right by my side ready to do things together....this morning has been a whole different story....first off, i had already planned to sleep in like old times (you know, pre-ashlyn)...i stayed up late, took a sleeping pill and was off to dreamland around 1....little did i know that the garland isd likes to get their lawns done at 7am....i woke up to the sound of big mowers flying around the school grounds...ugh...isn't there an unwritten rule about starting any yard work before 8???!!! geez people...work with me...so i decide i'll move into ashlyn's room to get away from the people who will be getting a letter stating my disgust at their lack of consideration for the people around them...(well, maybe not a letter...but i will be cussing them in my head for days to come...and they'll be getting the evil eye the next time they're out...don't you worry about that)...i move into ashlyn's room....start to drift back to sleep when BAM...this huge bright glowing light pierces through my eyelids....ugh...what now...i look up and see that ryan has turned on the hall light..i swear...no consideration...though i did get a laugh when he walked in the bedroom and realized i wasn't there and heard "what in the hell" murmur out of his mouth as he turned around and shot back out of the bedroom door...i guess to go and look for his missing wife...anyway, he got a mouthful of not so nice words about turning on the light...poor thing...he left...i moved back to our bedroom...it had started to rain so the lawn crew from hell was gone...or so i thought...i guess the rain let up just enough for them to start up again about 15 minutes after i had crawled back into my nice cozy bed...at this point it was just time to call it a wash...i laid in bed with my eyes open cursing the world...okay, maybe not cursing the world...but mad because my plan had been foiled...i saw that moname (ryan's mom) had called so i decided to check in to see how the kiddos did...of course everything went splendidly, which i was happy to hear...after i got off the phone i looked around and realized i was all alone...it's really weird...i guess when you're not used to something it just feels kind of awkward...i don't even know what to do with myself...you see i'm blogging...so you KNOW i have plenty of time on my hands...it's just weird not having the wee one tugging on me to get her a snack or to play with her...or at least ryan there playing video games...but i think it's kind of good in a way...i hate to admit it but it's a little refreshing...a dark dreary day...me just hanging out with my own thoughts...oh and of course penelope...who, in fact, is clinging to me for dear life because the thunder outside has got her scared to death....at least i have someone to look after...(lol, as i type this she has decided she doesn't need my comfort anymore and has wandered off to bed)....so now...what to do with my day?? i guess i'll be watching another season of Weeds, drinking my coffee...and maybe...just maybe i'll do some much needed house cleaning....though mrs yoshi, if you're out there and your reading this please save me...i need a few good rounds of mario kart to keep my sanity.....lol